"Too Skinny"

Ok, so I'm getting comments that are frustrating me, so I'm going to address it.  You are my faithful readers, after all!

     For a long time, I was very unhappy with my body.  Matt was ALWAYS happy with the way I looked, God bless him, but didn't like that I tore myself down because of my appearance.  And I didn't like that about myself either, but I just wasn't happy.  After our 2nd miscarriage in June (09), I was at a new all-time high weight-wise and felt so ugly.  I know that my friends and family NEVER saw me that way and would NEVER say that to me, but that's how I felt.  Part of it was also the grief we were going through, and my feelings of inadequacy due to 2 miscarriages on top of being heavy.

     I decided to do something about it.  I joined WW and started exercising.  Here I am 10 months later, and I weigh 72 pounds less than I did then.  I did it by learning great eating habits and exercising regularly - the way you're "supposed to".

    Now, I'm being faced with "too skinny" comments.  People telling me that they think I've gotten too thin, too skinny, and they're "worried" about me. I have approached my accountability buddies about this and have gotten such great support.  They know me, because they've been with me through this.  Here's a statement that I got from one of them that is EXACTLY how I feel about this:

"I have worked really hard at developing HEALTHY eating habits and I've been sticking to a workout regime that is making me stronger and healthier.  Perhaps it's hard for me to remember just how much heavier I was and the transformation that you all have seen in such a short time.  But, trust me.  It's been a road that I have traveled with professional guidance and I am healthy now.  Thank you for being concerned, though."

    I am shifting the focus of my blog from "weight-loss/weight-maintenance" to the rest of my life - and my running!  I need the accountability of checking in with you each week, but don't want to give you the impression that I'm "obsessed" with weight-loss.  Please understand it's been a big focus in my life these last 10 months, and that's not truly going to stop, it just changes focus:  I am VERY excited about my upcoming races.  I will continue to share life struggles with you - whether they're physical, emotional, spiritual, etc.  I will post my weekly weigh-in (because I do still go to WW and weigh in each week - they keep tabs on me, too!) on a side bar to the right of my blog - around my Monthly Miles.  (and Matt's, too!)

Thanks for your support through this journey.  It's not over.  I will be conscious of my body forever, like many of us are.  I have learned strategies that help me keep myself healthy, and I will work with those forever.  This is just another step along the way. . .