Is our marriage perfect? No. I'm not pretending it is. But ladies and gentlemen, it's pretty close. We are crazy about each other. Kiss in the corner of the kitchen, hold hands, open the door for each other, want to be together all the time - in love. It's amazing.
We had a rough fall in 2015. I didn't share much about it publicly, and I won't. I went through the most anxiety and depression I have ever faced in my life. But I'm ok, because Matt held me up. We are both ok, because we leaned on each other. We are in another transition right now, and we'll share more about it soon, I hope. But we fight nights with no sleep, financial stress, job stress, lack of time alone together, cranky kids, (the list goes on - like so many married couples) and we stand together.
Rachel Platten really reached me with her "Fight Song" earlier this year - I feel like it has meant a lot to me in my Jamberry business, but also as we have survived another storm. Well, she hit another home run. Stand by You is so much what I see in my marriage with this amazing man. There are times Matt has shared his "wings" so I can fly, too. I'm not alone, because Matt is with me.
(Side note: The lyrics that talk about heaven and hell. As a Christian - I don't take these lyrics literally, because I wouldn't want to walk through Hell without God. However, I would walk through the "hell" of earthly life, as long as I had Matt by my side. And with losing his father together, losing 2 babies, years of ups and downs, it has felt like an earthly "hell" at times.)
I love to get mushy and sappy and look into Matt's eyes and say sweet things. He likes to make jokes and tease me when I get that way, so I'm putting this here, where he can't retort ;) I don't think our marriage is anything that crazy-out-of-the-ordinary, but in a society that sees such high divorce and domestic violence rates, I'm pretty pumped about being where I am.
No matter what, babe, you have stood by me. When I haven't loved my body. When I haven't been lovable. When I haven't been logical. When I'm cranky on the couch at night when you wake me up to take me to bed. You have always stood by me, and I'm gonna stand by you. Fitting that we danced together on our wedding day to "Come What May". Another favorite song of mine, and was so prophetic. Here's to 50 more years together...or more. I love you.
Hands, put your empty hands in mine
And scars, show me all the scars you hide
And hey, if your wings are broken
Please take mine so yours can open, too
'Cause I'm gonna stand by you
Oh, tears make kaleidoscopes in your eyes
And hurt, I know you're hurting, but so am I
And, love, if your wings are broken
Borrow mine 'til yours can open, too
'Cause I'm gonna stand by you
Even if we're breaking down, we can find a way to break through
Even if we can't find heaven, I'll walk through Hell with you
Love, you're not alone, 'cause I'm gonna stand by you
Even if we can't find heaven, I'm gonna stand by you
Even if we can't find heaven, I'll walk through Hell with you
Love, you're not alone, 'cause I'm gonna stand by you
Yeah, you're all I never knew I needed
And the heart—sometimes it's unclear why it's beating
And, love, if your wings are broken
We can brave through those emotions, too
'Cause I'm gonna stand by you
Oh, truth—I guess truth is what you believe in
And faith—I think faith is having a reason
And I know now, love, if your wings are broken
Borrow mine 'til yours can open, too
'Cause I'm gonna stand by you
Even if we're breaking down, we can find a way to break through
Even if we can't find heaven, I'll walk through Hell with you
Love, you're not alone, 'cause I'm gonna stand by you
Even if we can't find heaven, I'm gonna stand by you
Even if we can't find heaven, I'll walk through Hell with you
Love, you're not alone, 'cause I'm gonna stand by you
I'll be your eyes 'til yours can shine
And I'll be your arms, I'll be your steady satellite
And when you can't rise, well, I'll crawl with you on hands and knees
'Cause I... I'm gonna stand by you
Even if we're breaking down, we can find a way to break through (come on)
Even if we can't find heaven, I'll walk through Hell with you
Love, you're not alone, 'cause I'm gonna stand by you
Even if we can't find heaven, I'm gonna stand by you
Even if we can't find heaven, I'll walk through Hell with you
Love, you're not alone, 'cause I'm gonna stand by you
Love, you're not alone
Oh, I'm gonna stand by you
(even if we can't find heaven, heaven, heaven)
Yeah, I'm gonna stand by you
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Sweet. So happy for you guys. I love it!
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